Paid Twice’s post this morning that there’s no shame in not being able to afford things really struck a chord. One of those “little” things that aren’t so little.
You see, this morning I was feeling a little bit blue as I got ready for work. Sometimes I get sick of my clothes. I only have a few business-like outfits–5 shirts and two pairs of pants. Now there’s ways to combine them (one is a twin-set, so the sweater and sweater-vest can change things up with the other shirts) but after a certain point it’s just the same 5 shirts and two pairs of pants.
In particular I feel annoyed that I don’t have something slightly more casual for the library. Maybe two pairs of slacks and a few more shirts.
Of course, I could buy them. We do have the money. But since there’s nothing wrong with the clothes I have and I have enough clothes for over a week (mostly because I only wear them at work, never more than a 4-hour shift, so if they don’t get sweaty I can wear them again) I don’t need to buy anything new. And since we don’t have any real extra income at this point because of the job change, it’s not like I could just say “Oh, I’ll put our $200 extra towards clothes this month.”
My clothes are in great condition and I’ve periodically received comments on how good they look on me and how they’re definitely my colors. I have no reason to be ashamed.
At the same time, it can feel like school–when I was wearing hand-me-downs and pretty badly teased sometimes. I wonder if people have noticed my dearth of clothes and what they think of that. If they’d tease me if we weren’t adults. If they talk about me behind my back. If I shouldn’t care if they do because it doesn’t matter.
I could see investing in a wardrobe if I were looking for career advancement. But it’s quite appropriate for now.
Once I do start making more money, I’ll look into adding a little money back into the budget for expanding my wardrobe.
And maybe I’ll get creative: I’m also considering selling two items I’ve never worn and using the money for buying a couple new shirts. And I may use some of my birthday Joann’s money to buy pants fabric since I have a really good pattern. Joanns has the advantage of 40% off coupons and then free fabric anyway since it’s a gift card.
But for now, I will be dressed and I will (do my best to) not be ashamed.